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Sauna Friday 😜 (NSFW)

Good morning guys, the weekend is here, let's go back to the sauna! 🐼🚿

We took these pictures in a love motel here in GDL. The place was a complete surprise, this suite included a heated pool, two Jacuzzis and this big sauna. I've been tempted to go back and shoot a music video there for a while now, just need to find the moment (and some volunteers to come along ☺️).

I'm still waiting for the doctor to set a date for my next surgery, I'll let you know when I get an update. I will have to stay in the hospital for two da...

Cake For Days (Part 2 - NSFW)

Good morning guys, let's celebrate #throwbackthursday with another juicy cake breakfast 🍰🤪.

The first two pictures were my favorite butt pics for a while until we took the one I shared with you in June, this particular photo shoot was at a hotel in Mexico City in 2020, the afternoon before my showcase at the Mysteria Origins festival. A great show and a strange set of circumstances. It was October, we were in the middle of the pandemic, but it was perfectly organized to avoid any contact. It was open air, people were in their car...

A nice memory and an update (NSFW)

Good morning folks, it's #wetwednesday, so let's bring back this happy memory from 2020, nothing like a bear drying off after frolicking at the pond ☺️

I don't know if I'm shooting myself in the foot here, but here goes: I need another surgery, the lung lump turned out to be cancer as well. The good news is that it's apparently not a complicated surgery because it's very localized and small, and I might be able to get in and out of the hospital the same day. But it's still fucked up. I have to find money to keep paying for all this...

Cake For Days (NSFW)

Good morning everyone, let's start the day with a cake fest! 🍰😜

I had only shared a few of these before, and there are more on this session, I'll get back to it one of these days ☺️

Today is a tricky day, I have the (that) doctor appointment this afternoon where we'll find out what's next. I've been anxious since the last results came back yesterday. I haven't read them, we decided it's best to let the doctor tell us what's what. So keep your fingers crossed and wish me luck.

Until then, I'm going to keep working ...

Singlet Monday ☺️

Good morning guys, I found these singlet pics on the vault and reedited them for you 😜

Another week starts, I just finished the demo of a new song yesterday, a nice and sexy ballad. I will finish mixing it and then go back to the "All Systems Go" book and fix all the typos. I hope to have the book back online by the weekend.

Hope your week is off to a good start, have a wonderful Monday 😘 ❤️

Lazy Sunday (NSFW)

Good morning guys, I can't think of a better way to spend the morning than this, on the sofa texting with friends, playing solitaire and having a nice nap before lunch, want to join me? 😉.

These are pictures from 2012 in Madrid, a nice memory of a nice day ☺️

Yesterday was a nice day, I worked on a new song in the morning and in the afternoon I watched a movie and then my husband's Twitch live set. A friend came over and we had dinner afterwards. A cool evening. I'll be working on the song again this morning until lunch. 2024-08-11 14:53:38 +0000 UTC View Post

The Neighbor Remixed (Part 2 - Wallpapers - NSFW)☺️

Good morning guys, one more night, the neighbor appeared on the stairs, couldn't believe my eyes 😍😜

Here's the rest of the newly restored full color pics from the neighbor series. I reedited the set in color, with a cinematic vibe and in 16:9 so you can use any of the pics as a wallpaper if you want. If I'm not mistaken this is the first time these pics are here (most of them were only available in BW on OF and JFF until now)

Today I have a procedure at noon. It should be nothing, an hour and a half thing, and I should be h...

The Neighbor Remixed (Part 1 - Wallpapers - NSFW)☺️

Good morning guys! it's #throwbackthursday and the neighbor knows it 😜

He's here for the first time, in color and teasing you from the second floor, what are you going to do? 🤪

I reedited the set in color, with a cinematic vibe and in 16:9 so you can use any of the pics as a wallpaper if you want. If I'm not mistaken this is the first time these pics are here (they were only available in BW on OF and JFF)

I was finally able to do some music work and finished mixing one of the songs and another one is halfway done, I'l...

Keytar Wallpaper

Hey guys! I've began gathering materials for the remake of my first book, and I thought you'd like to have this pic as a wallpaper ☺️

Martin took this pic during the filming of the "I Don't Wanna Fight" music video we shot in our bedroom. My inspiration for the pose was the iconic photo of Jimmy Hendrix on his knees watching his guitar burn ☺️

I'm waiting to have here a copy of the new "2024-08-06 15:42:53 +0000 UTC View Post

Saturday 🔴 briefs 😜 (NSFW)

Good morning guys, did you know that red is my favorite color? ☺️🔴☺️

So I couldn't help but revisit part of this red briefs photo gallery from 2022, this time including some pictures I didn't share back then, hope you enjoy them 😜

The new hardcover "All Systems Go" book, now titled "All Systems Go: A Visual Exploration" goes live on Amazon today 🎉

You can check the series page to get the links here: h...

Lego Friday (NSFW 😈)

Good morning guys, Friday finally arrived, want to play Lego? 😜

Updates and news: I managed to do the three tests the doctor asked for in two days, the results will be back before Tuesday, so I hope we'll have an update by next Thursday tops. Chemo or no chemo, that's the question we want to get answered 🧐

I just finished the new hardcover version of the "All Systems Go" book this morning. It's been in the works for a few months. I reworked the book that was on Amazon and rewrote almost everything and added...

Two sides 😈 (NSFW)

Hey guys, I found these two pics that I think are a curious match, like two sides of the same story ☺️

The story is that I'm at a point in my recovery where I can see getting horny in a minute, haha.

I have two possible collabs in the horizon (that will be posted on the B side, you know this platform wouldn't allow such a thing), but I want to be more recovered before putting myself in front of the camera. A little vanity is not a bad thing 😘

Happy Thursday 😘

Bed fantasy (NSFW)

Good morning everyone! I found these pictures yesterday and they reflect exactly how I want to be in a few days, in bed and ready to have some well deserved fun 🤩.

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday and we are now officially in phase three of my recovery (phase one was the major surgery, two was the second one to deal with the infection). Today I'm going to see another doctor to find out how much chemo I need. Hopefully not too much, because according to the tests I'm cancer clean, also because the thing is crazy expensive and I...

Poolside Wallpaper (NSFW)

Hey guys, here's the wallpaper version of yesterday's gallery ☺️

A curious fact that I wanted to share with you, because I know that some of you have to deal with this kind of insecurities as well: I had the idea to make this wallpaper while I was still in bed, unable to do much by myself. I had a few ideas back then that I'm working on now that I can finally work (a little) again. The thing is, it took me a little more time than I expected (shadows are complicated to draw), but when I finished it and looked at the whole thing, a ...

Poolside exercises with a black shirt 😜 (NSFW)

Good morning guys! Nothing like starting the morning by stretching the muscles and getting some exercise in, are you with me? ☺️

One thing that surprises me about the recovery process I'm in from the major surgery I had last month is how weak the body is left after all the shenanigans. My doctor warned me about this, he told me it would take time and a lot of willpower to recover, but I'm all in, keeping busy and running as much as I can (turtle mode at the moment though 😅).

Also thinking about new music videos. I'm looki...

Harness & Mesh Fun 😈 (NSFW)

Hey guys, hope your weekend is going well. Here are two pics hubby edited for you, hope they're not too much for here 😜

I'm feeling much better today, every day is an improvement. I still have one bandage left, but it's ok, it'll go away next Tuesday. Until then I'll keep walking as much as I can and figuring out what can I be creating and sharing with you. Maybe a Dj set...
Happy Saturday 😘 ❤️

Remixing, Rebuilding, Healing... ❤️‍🩹

Remixing, Rebuilding, Healing... ❤️‍🩹

As I said in my post on social media today, I'm halfway through my recovery journey and I'm taking a look back at some of my favorite photo galleries 📸.

Today is the first day in over a month that I've been able to make my own coffee and do some work on my computer. I remembered this photo set and did a little remix for you. Can't wait to create more new content, hopefully soon 🤞🏻

Thank you so much for staying here with me, your subscription is what allowed me to pay f...

On my way to recovery ❤️‍🩹

My dear friends, subscribers and inner circle. I didn’t know how to talk about this at first, so I just kept it for myself for a few days to process it. Then things got complicated.

Now, the first day I’ve been able to get my iPad and write something (with the help of my husband), I want to take a moment to apologize for my absence this past month and explain to you what has happened.

First and foremost, I am alright and in the way to recovery. In the beginning of the month I went to a routine medical check-up and to our sur...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 8: The Beginning (NSFW)

Hey guys! Today we finish "Love In Neon City" with this emotional 8th chapter, enjoy ☺️

I hope you liked it, somehow I think this could have been a great pitch for Bearcity 4. I have to tell Jay and Joe 😜

Chapter 8: The Beginning

Josh kept his distance for two days, he needed to think. It was the first time they hadn't talked for that long since their second date. It felt like an eternity, and the strain began to take its toll on Josh and Corey's relationship. Corey, used to more freedom and ...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 7: The Decision (NSFW)

Hey guys! here is chapter 7 of "Love In Neon City", and tomorrow, the conclusion, enjoy ☺️

Chapter 7: The Decision

As the days turned into weeks, Josh and Corey grew closer. The dynamics of the triad shifted, but their friendship remained strong. Marcus and Adrian supported Josh and Corey's decision to explore their connection, even if it meant changing the status quo.

One night, after a particularly emotional conversation, Josh realized how much he had grown and left behind since that first day in the ...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 6: The Experiment (NSFW)

Hey guys! #tgif 🎉 and here's chapter 6 of "Love In Neon City", only 2 chapters to go, enjoy ☺️

Chapter 6: The Experiment

The next day they gathered for breakfast in the kitchen, Marcus had cooked and the air was filled with the smell of fresh coffee and pastries. The conversation flowed lazily, and there came a moment when they ended up talking about Josh's life situation. Corey's partners were understanding and supportive, but they also encouraged Josh to explore life. They insisted that he needed to take...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 5: The Invitation (NSFW)

Hello guys, hope your week is going well, here's chapter 5 of "Love In Neon City", enjoy 😊

Chapter 5: The Invitation

Corey and his partners lived in an old duplex in the old part of town. A cozy place with old furniture, real books and a vinyl and CD collection to die for. Dinner with the triad was an eye-opener for Josh. He was greeted by two other men, both charming and experienced, and perhaps 10 or 15 years older than Corey and himself. One was Marcus, a silver-haired artist with a quiet demeanor and a kee...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 4: The Discovery (NSFW)

Hello guys, this is chapter 4 of "Love In Neon City", enjoy ☺️

Chapter 4: The Discovery

Corey went back to his room, he needed a moment. These days had grown darker for him. After losing all hope of ever finding Josh again, he wrote about their encounter on a page, hoping that the "message in a bottle" would reach Josh. He checked his messages again with a mixture of hope and resignation. When he saw Josh's message, his heart leapt. He replied quickly, and they agreed to meet the next day at a downtown Starbu...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 3: The Realization (NSFW)

Hello guys, here's chapter 3 of "Love In Neon City", enjoy! 😉

Chapter 3: The Realization

They parted ways at the end of the street. The morning was cold and rainy. As Josh left the motel, the city felt darker and emptier. His gaze returned to his usual somber mood, and he couldn't help but think of the lyrics to his favorite song, "Don't Say A Word" by Benjamin Koll:

"HIS GAZE WAS FADED BY TH...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 2: The Encounter (NSFW)

Hello guys, this is the second chapter of "Love In Neon City". Enjoy 😉

Chapter 2: The Encounter

The neon signs flickered overhead as Josh and Corey walked through the bustling streets, their steps falling naturally into sync. Josh was a little embarrassed that the place he'd rented wasn't fancier, but he honestly hadn't expected to have company on his little escapade. They arrived at the modest motel, its exterior illuminated by a soft, inviting glow. Josh hesitated before pushing open the door, feeling a mixt...

Love In Neon City - Chapter 1: The Meeting

Hey guys, in the next few days I'm going to share with you a story I've written. My first intention was to write a script for the music video of my song "Don't Say A Word", but then the story took on a life of it's own. This is the first of 8 chapters:

Chapter 1: The Meeting

In the heart of Neo-City, where neon lights danced off polished chrome surfaces and the air buzzed with the hum of hovercars, a ...

New position (Part 1 - NSFW)

Good morning guys! Today I'm trying some new stuff for you ☺️ I took these yesterday afternoon after work. Took a shower and thought "hey, I don't think I've ever tried this position" 🤪 So here they are, maybe a lot of different choices, but hey, it's Saturday!

I might edit one for open social media, which one do you think I should post?

Hope your weekend is going great, have a wonderful day 😘❤️

Hello from my bedroom ☺️ (NSFW)

Good morning guys, live from my bedroom this morning, here are some pictures I took when I woke up and took my morning shower 🤪🚿.

The last 12 days have been a rollercoaster at home, things are looking good now, but for a moment it got a bit... stressful. Sometimes the only secret in life is to go with the flow and accept whatever the universe puts in front of you, and just like in a video game, be present and pay attention to every little opportunity that comes your way.

And after my Miyagi moment, have a wonderful Friday g...